Monday, June 25, 2012

...randomness...

Hellllllloooooo out there!

I'm officially back to work from being on maternity leave.  The night before my first day to work, I swear "Wolfie" knew I was going to leave her or something, because she was a little terror!  She did not want to sleep in her bed, not even beside me... she wanted to be on me!  The next day, I didn't get as much sleep as I desired, but I was still to work before my reporting time!  Yay me!!  So, I'm there and it's an employee recognition/award ceremony.  Those things kinda get on my nerves, because my unit is so small, and I have yet to be recognized!  LOL!  Am I wrong for feeling this way?  Maybe it's because I have this nonchalant attitude about this place.  Don't get me wrong, I'm extremely thankful for my job, and I actually don't need anyone to tell me that I'm doing a good job.  I feel like I do an excellent job!  The first time they did something like this, the lady that was rewarded had only been in my unit for a few short months.  I don't want to take anything from her, because I feel like she does go above and beyond.  When she's not here, I feel like "blah"... LOL!  After that, I think that's when I started having the nonchalant attitude.  Then when I found out they got some money with that, I was like "Oh yeahhh???"  I eventually said something to my supervisor about it, and she gave me some lame story as to why it was her and not me.  But by that point I was already like EFF THIS PLACE!  Hahaha!  Hey, that may be why I'm not getting it.  I don't know.  This is probably sounding real wish washy, but that's just how I feel.  Like I don't care, but I do... if that makes any sense!?  If you don't get what I'm saying, eff you too!  LMBO!  I'm really just joking!  ...anywhoooo, so when I finally get to my babies, I felt like they really made my day.  Getting those smiles, hugs, kisses...Awww!  <3

This past weekend, I was a ball of emotions.  There was so much on my heart.  I told my BF that I wanted to runaway.  His response, "go ahead babe, I'll be here when you get back."  I clearly wasn't going too far, I was actually taking "Stabs" to a birthday party, and I decided to take "Wolfie" with me.  LOL!  He's always so supportive. I'm so thankful for him.  So it took me some time, but I was able to get out of my stanky runt.  Thank God!  I'm learning to not let the things that I can't control, control me.  You know what I mean?  I really wish I was able to go to church because I always feel so much better when I do.  And I feel like going makes my week so much more better. 

I also made a decision to do what's best for me.  And currently, that's having a peace of mind!  I don't know how much more my nerves can take. 

BTW: This new format really blows major balls!

1 comment:

  1. This new format does blow major balls!!! Feel better!

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