Friday, July 22, 2011

Day 19 – Your Reflection In The Mirror

As I sit here typing... I've placed my little office mirror right in front of me...

What I see is a round face brown girl... hair pulled back.  Holding on to this hair, so I don't have to do it.  I want to cut it.  It will happen soon.  I don't want any hair right now... just a little curly ush bush.  I'm sure that's going to be a disaster, that's why I'm keeping this hair now.  Scar on my forehead.  That's my reminder of what happened to me when I was a small child hanging out with my Godmother.  The story is, we were out at some store... something like a Macy's, probably Hecht's or something like that.  And I was running around the store, ready to go.  She was taking her time, and next thing she knew, I was laid out on the floor, screaming, crying, and blood all over my face.  The size of my scar is pretty big to me as an adult, so I can only imagine what it looked like then.  I don't remember this happening... Now that I think about it... I've had all kinds of trama, so I'm sure this is why I don't remember so much.  SMH... Moving on, ears that pop out just a tad.  Thin shaped eyebrows.  Brown eyes, that have seen so much.  That are seconds away from releasing tears at any given moment.  It could be something funny, I would laugh so hard that I cry.  It could be something sad.  Something that I can't imagine is happening to me.  Something that I've had happen to me.  Something that I don't want my child to have to go thru.  Happy tears, hurt tears... I got plenty.  Say my name the wrong way, and I'll show you.  Strange nose.  I remember as a child wondering why my nose looked the way it did.  LOL!  Few freckles.  Perfect lips, slightly turned downward.  Just had to apply some more lip gloss.  ;-)  When I smile, I feel like that makes my face light up.  Right now, just typing and looking into the mirror, I look uninterested.  Blank stare.  But when I smile, beautiful!  1...2... 2 chins, yikes!  I really need to work on that...  I wasn't always this round,  I used to be super duper skinny...  This is what happens when you like the foods that I like, and you don't like exercising. 

So yea... that's what I see when I look in the mirror. 

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