...i am not my hair...

Okay, so you may have noticed in my photo yesterday, that I had a little beanie type thingy on my head.  Over the past year or so, I've been having issues with my hair.  I've tried to tell my stylist about them... I could go get my hair done on Saturday and by Tuesday, I'll look like "who done it...".  The I would start to have these scalp issues on top of that.  It wasn't dandruff, it was dry scalp flakes... LOL!  You say tomato, I say tamato dangit!!  To me, dandruff means your hair is dirty.  My hair wasn't!  Okay, so over time, I would think cutting it would make it better... it didn't work.  I thought putting tracks or braids in my hair would help... that didn't work either.  I needed to do something more drastic!  I've talked about going natural before.  I've even attempted it right before I found out I was preggers with my daughter.  When I tried it that time, I just went to get my hair done every week or so... I would get twists put in and after a few days, wear it out in a frizzy bush.  I loved it that way, but it was getting a little too costly!  I think I went like 9 months without getting a perm.  Okay, so moving on to the past few months... for my birthday I cut my hair again!  A little while after that, I was over it... Then at the end of May, I decided to get some individual braids... considering I don't do much to my hair already, I pretty much kept those up in a bun the whole time I had them.  In the beginning, I wore them out, moussed them up and twisted them to maintain the wavy look.  Fast forward to a few weeks ago... it was wayyyyy past the time for those things to come out.  So after laying around my house, I decided it was time to get up and take them out... I started cutting them out!  I left literally an inch or so of the braids in my hair so I wouldn't be completely bald!  My daughter helped me out, she thought it was the coolest thing!  My <3 was there... LOL!  The reaction that he had... PRICELESS!  "What are you doingggg?!?!?!"  "Why are you doing this to yourself???"  "You're CRAZYYYY!!!!"  Granted, I didn't know what I was doing, but I knew I wasn't going to have time to take those out and I didn't have an appointment to get it done, so I didn't know what I would do with it after taking them out.  Since then, I've been looking on different sites for tips, I've been talking with a few natural ladies to get their advice, and more importantly, I've been enjoying my teenie weenie afro!  Not to the point where I'm ready to wear it out... I think I need to experiment some more.  What I really need to do is go product shopping.  Next week, I'm on vacay, and I think day 1, I'm going to treat myself (and my daughter) to getting our hair did!  ;-) Oh yeahhhh, after seeing the Good Hair documentary, I knew I didn't want to go back to the perm!!  And my daughter better forget it if she think she'll be getting one.  Not on my watch!  My family, coworkers and a few friends aren't completely with my new look yet... But that's fine, I didn't do this for them, I did this for me!  I feel much better with the choice that I made, and this is only the beginning...  again, I am not my hair!